Changes will not deal with Plan...

Wednesday now....
2 weeks already...
u leave this room 2 weeks ady...
feel like u're just beside me and flirt me...
the room still the same..
the bed still the same..
everything is still the same...
but..
the Only different is......U....
U r not here anymore...
ur voice...
ur laugh...
ur scent...
ur hug...
ur warm...
all gone at the same time...
i wish to have a time machine...
back to the moment that spend with u...
pause on the moment...and make a changes on it then only play it...
did u think this before???...........
if u think 14 days gonna make me healed...
u're wrong...
i'm still the same...
i still miss u...
i still need u...
i still care u...
i still love u...
i'm still Me...
but u will never know all this...
in front u,
i have to pretend...
i have to act...
i have to tell lie..
i have to be Not me...
this is only thing i can do now..
i can't let u see through me..
M***t T**...what can i do...
forget u? let go u? give up u?
i've tried too..
but u know how hard izzit?
once i force myself not to think...
everything become clearer in my mind...
i failed....i'm so into u....

3 weeks ago...
i plan to go back on 3rd dec and ask my fren fetch me to ur hostel...
then ask u come out n give u a big big hug once u open the door...
5 days i can stay with u...
i plan to give u surprise...
i plan to company u...
i plan to stay beside u...
i plan to make u happy..
i plan to take care u..
i plan to celebrate our 5th year with u...
but now....everything change...
changes breaks my plan...
ticket still with me...but it now become a useless paper to me..
happy and expectancy replaced by sadness...
not going back penang ady...
i'm not in ur heart anymore...
my perfect plan is now nothing for u...
u no need me...

last nite i slept at bout 3am...
lied to u again..
i said no need u company me..
but actually is contrary to what i said...
i duno why u say good night to me everynight...
u knew i cnt sleep without u?
thx for that..
n my finger..i duno how u know bout it..
i din buy medicine..let it be..
but thx too...
i can't give u kiss or what..
Thanks is what i can do...

these few days hard for u right?
assignment did wrong??
u add oil naa..
re-do again...u can d...
put more effort ma..
dun lazy....
bout ur work...
tiring right?
so late still at there...
enjoy it ba..oni lik this u will not feel tired...

today a song for u...
"love to be loved by you" from Marc Terenzi.u knew this song...but i just wanna give u again...i like it so much..

I can't believe I'm standing here
Been waiting for so many years and
Today I found the Queen to reign my heart
You changed my live so patiently
And turned it into something good and real
I feel just like I felt in all my dreams
There are questions hard to answer
Can't you see…
Baby, tell me how can I tell you
That I love you more than life
Show me how can I show you
That I'm blinded by your light
When you touch me I can touch you
To find out the dream is true
I love to be loved by you
You're looking kind of scared right now
You're waiting for the wedding vows
But I don't know if my tongue's able to talk
Your beauty is just blinding me
Like sunbeams on a summer stream and
I gotta close my eyes to protect me
Can you take my hand and lead me
From here please yeah...yeah...
Baby, tell me how can I tell you
That I love you more than life
Show me how can I show you
That I'm blinded by your light
When you touch me I can touch you
To find out the dream is true
I love to be loved, I need to be loved
I love to be loved by you
I know they gonna say our love's not strong enough to last forever
And I know they gonna say that we'll give up because of heavy weather
But how can they understand that our love is just heaven sent
We keep on going on and on cause this is where we both belong…
Baby, tell me how can I tell you
That I love you more than life
Show me how can I show you
That I'm blinded by your light
When you touch me I can touch you
To find out the dream is true
I love to be loved, I need yes I need to be loved
I love to be loved by you
Yes I love to be loved by you

if no changes...
i'm packing now..
i'm excited to meet u now...
i'm waiting 3rd dec..
i'm happy to be with u...
i'm........................
if no changes...
will u wish to see me too..............